Sorry for dropping this in here, but I felt like I ought to–despite the fact that it belongs in my diary and is sort of doing exactly what I despair.
I wish I could believe that the world is not going to end, but I cannot convince myself of that. The media and the backlash are so loud that I repeatedly forget that Barack Obama is still our president until approximately 11:59a on January 20¹. And that’s an incredible disservice to him, you know, for all the things he’s done for us and the love he’s shown us. It's a shame, really.
Would I still leave if I had the means to do so? Absolutely. Past Republican victories have been disappointing; this is on the order of signing a four-year lease to hell. More than that, I could hear myself think. After all, once I hear the latest decisions of the Dáil (or the Seanad)² and learn that it’s going to be a blissful 18°C tomorrow, what need have I for the international news?
Also, for those who missed it the other day, I said the following on Twitter:
I cried this morning because I'm afraid of losing Medicaid, Medicare, and Social Security. My disability victory is now in the trash. #NotMyPresident
And–although I loathe to give this loser space–some asshole had the audacity to retweet/reply:
I cheered this morning because now maybe the freeloaders abusing programs like Medicare and Social Security will be sent beyond The Wall.
Since I couldn't help but feel like that was directed specifically at me (and not necessarily entirely at illegal immigrants), I said the following just before I blocked him:
I wish you every bit of the abuse, depression, panic disorder and bullshit I have suffered since the age of twelve. You deserve it.
Then, to emphasize my point, I pinned the following to my feed (this is the Facebook version):
Somebody said earlier that he hopes Medicare and Social Security will be eliminated, so that "freeloaders" (like me) will be "sent over the wall".
Really? We're deporting seventh generation WHITE GIRLS now? That's news
But hey, I'll leave quietly…just pay for my plane ticket, hand me €5,000 and please ask PM Kenny to have my citizenship ready? Thanks, luv! •sarcastic kisses•
"PM Kenny" being Prime Minister (Taoiseach) Enda Kenny of Ireland, of course.
Do I really think I'm in danger of being deported? About as much as I think €5,000 is sufficient to start my new life! But you know me when I get angry…
¹ I have no idea when the oath is administered during the inauguration ceremony–I just put that in there because it's my diary and I didn't care to look it up!
² The Seanad is the Irish Senate and the Dáil Eireann is the Irish House.
I know I’m not even halfway to the big quarter century (seven months!); but a recent status update from a friend reminded me of some of the stuff I’ve done in the last 25 years, so I thought I’d share…
- Read at (at least) a fifth grade level by age 5 (I read a poem at my Kindergarten graduation!)
- Ate escargot (when I was really, really young…EW!)
- Conquered stage fright before the third grade (dancing for thirteen years does that to you!)
- Attended the skiing world cup (Vail, 1999)
- Played a National Adjudicators’ Invitational event (2002 Dixie Classic)
- Saw Pope John Paul II while packed onto a Canadian Air Force base with several hundred thousand other people (2002)
- Went to Ireland as an exchange student (2003)
- Auditioned for the dance program at Western Michigan University without having taken a single ballet class (dumb, but I’m still proud of myself!)
- Participated in Harvard Model Congress (San Francisco 2004)
- Called my best friend from Alcatraz (same trip!)
- Survived Advanced Placement English (LOL)
- Made a Macbeth mini movie in 17 hours (for AP English…legendary!)
- Participated in six beauty pageants (did two twice…I’m not the pageant sort!)
- Spent five days in Las Vegas by myself (2008…and I’d do it again in a heartbeat!)
I’m not going to get too deep into the debate over vaccines…I’m just going to point out a few of the more obvious things.
First, if the “vaccination experts” are swearing up and down that they removed thimerosal and other mercury products years ago, then why are people still lobbying to have it removed?
Second, if vaccinations really are to blame for autism, then why does the disease mostly affect males? Shouldn’t it hit both genders equally? And if the chemicals in these vaccinations are actually the problem, then shouldn’t the effects be irreversible, like with asbestos causing mesothelioma? Why then are people like Jenny McCarthy able to get their children “out” of autism?
As for vaccines being a necessity for a safe and healthy existence, I believe that most are necessary, but some are pointless. Why on earth did they develop a vaccine for chickenpox?! It’s as common as a cold and except for the rare possibility of developing it twice or the occasional possibility of getting shingles later on, what harm does it do? The (standard) flu vaccine is even worse…scientists have to GUESS which four strains will be prominent each year! You’d be further off trying to guess what color a leaf will turn come autumn! I’m not sure Gardasil is all its cracked up to be, either…personally, I’m doing without because it only protects you from four types of HPV–I’d rather “be hung for a sheep as for a lamb” as the old saying goes.
Just because I’m getting my B.Sc. in alternative medicine and want go to (alternative) medical school doesn’t mean I have any intention of sticking my nose up at vaccines–or at least not all of them. No amount of herbs or other “Naturopathic stuff” is ever going to convince me that I’m safe from getting lockjaw (or something worse) if I get tetanus. No “magic tricks” I learn at Everglades or University of Bridgeport (or wherever I go next) will keep me safe if I’m too dumb to get vaccinated for meningitis before I move into graduate housing.
Just because we’re learning natural ways of treating disease doesn’t mean we have to completely turn our backs on “the establishment”–that would be harmful to both us and our patients. If one of my future patients wants an epidural, do you think I’m going to deny her just because I’m a Naturopath? Fuck no! I am a physician first and a Naturopath second–and I think many of my future (and current) colleagues would do well to remember that for themselves.
Choose a musical artist and use titles from his/her repertoire to answer the following questions.
Pick Your Artist: Enya
Are you male or female? Miss Clare Remembers
Describe yourself: Wild Child
How do you feel about yourself? Hope Has a Place
Describe your current dating situation: Water Shows the Hidden Heart
I’m in love with Jamie, deep within my heart.
Describe where you currently live: Shepherd Moons
I thought that was an apt way to describe living in the country.
If you could go anywhere: La Soñadora
Your favorite form of transportation: Drifting
Enya doesn’t have any songs about flying (as far as I know).
Your best friend(s): Amarantine
Amaranth is a long-lasting flower.
Your favorite color is: Caribbean Blue
No songs about black/silver here.
Favorite time: On My Way Home
I sometimes daydream on the drive home.
What life is to you: Long, Long Journey
What is the best advice you have to give? Paint the Sky with Stars
That had to be probably the hardest question. What else could I say?
If you could change your name, what would it be? I disqualified myself from this question, having already changed my name.
Thought for the day: Someone Said Goodbye
Referring to David Carradine’s death.
How I would like to die: To Go Beyond
My soul’s present condition: If I Could Be Where You Are
Dreaming of Jamie, of course.
From time to time, I have people ask me, “How is it that you seem to get only celebrities for soulmates?” (With a note of disbelief in their voices or their keystrokes.)
What…you think I plan this or something? You think I just say, “Hey, I like that celebrity…I think I’ll call him my soulmate?”
Pardon me while I stop writing for a couple minutes and laugh my ass off. [/sarcasm]
Don’t you think if it was as easy as looking through a catalog and picking people out, I’d go for guys closer to my age? Maybe even in my state, so they’d be more accessible? Don’t you think if I had the option, I would have picked someone I could “bring home to the Fire Family”, without worrying about reigniting a decade-long feud between my soulmate and my FireFather?* Don’t you think I would have picked someone who wasn’t still in the classroom known as his first marriage?
The real issue, I think, is that my friends forget that my soulmates have not been celebrities for their entire existence. When my soulmates were younger, were they not as average you and I? Haven’t you stopped to think who they might have been when we met centuries ago? My father, my brother, my lover, my cousin, my friend? How often do you forget that “celebrity” is merely a label we stick on normal people to indicate that they have a higher level of popularity than the rest of us?
I’m sorry if you think I’m a puppy-love-drunk fool, but your disbelief is not going to change the knowledge buried deep in my soul and what I feel in my heart. I love them both dearly and I am so glad I have them in my life. It’s been one hell of a rollercoaster ride these last eleven years, but I would change anything that I have said and done and learned for the world.**
* I don’t know if it still exists between them, or if it ever did in the first place…after this long, I don’t care. Everyone involved in that feud needs to get over it!